Anniversary - Another day

Today I celebrate my blog's second anniversary. Thank you. Thank you ! So I guess it is a time for a lot of reflection and contemplation. (So well, whats new about that on this blog, right?)

If you ask me today, why I write a blog, the honest answer is I don't know. May be I like a parallel existence. I think I started it because it was cool and quite a few of my friends were doing it. And as I started to surf, I figured out that blogs like people have a character and it needn't be an online diary. So, as I did some thinking about the identity of my blog, 'In perpetual transition' came to me instantly. I am that and a lot more. However, the name of the blog, Have-no-fullstops, is inspired by a book by Sir Mark Tully of the same name ' Have No full stops in India' which is a collection of 10 essays on India. I read that in my class 10, I think. It was then that I was drawn to non-fiction and I have remained a non-fiction loyalist ever since. Have-no-fullstops also symbolises what I believe in - there are no fullstops, some commas, some exclamation marks, some hyphens but full stops.. naa..

Anyways, if you guys think that I am going to say that its been one long journey over two years, where I have grown up, changed , matured, developed a world view and all that. Sorry. I am a little more pessimistic. Yes my life stage has changed and hence my experiences and world views have accordingly. But I do not think that I have changed, grown up, matured and all that. Its not that I have been perfect or totally mature that I did not have the need to grow up or mature further. Its just that I have stagnated at the place where I was and I still am.

Look at the themes in my post. I am an eternal optimist, or so I would like to believe, yet there is a distinct strand of melancholy. There are so many different forms of relationship that I experience first hand or see people in - like husband wife, boss reportee, brother sister, best friends, father son, and yet I have explored only one of them boy friend - girl friend. I feel that the posts in the first year of my blogs existence had some form of energy, which I guess, fizzled away. I think it is a reflection of whats happening in the real world too, I guess.

So, I set out on a mission to bring about change. Get my life to be more active, break the routine, the monotony. I made plans to do one new thing this year, or see two new places, read three new authors and so on. But every time I took two steps forward, I retraced three. And in these tries, you learn a harsh reality. The biggest and the toughest battles are those which you fight with yourself. And in contrast to this, it is so simple to overcome the biggest challenge the external world throws up in your direction.

But you know what. The very fact that I have realised what battles I need to fight within myself, is the first step. The fact that I am willing to fight means that I have a foot in the door, already. And trust me, this is just a comma, or at max a semi colon and if that has to change, it will be to an exclamation mark! :)

So much for an anniversary celebration, right? There have been a few of you I guess who have been reading my blog since its creation and a few who have hopped on somewhere in between and a few who just peek in occasionally and a few who have dropped off on the way. Well, whoever you guys are, and from wherever you are - Thank you.

By the way, I have some great news. Through this blog, I met a great friend and my circle of people expanded by one more nice person. And coincidentally, she is getting married this week. So 'Archie' a.k.a '@' - here is wishing you a very happy married life!